God is faithful.
It hit me. He is faithful.
I had a moment the other day. I was mad, and kind of throwing a fit just all to myself. I don't really understand God's plan for my life. I have no idea what's coming, and I don't even know how to get through tomorrow. I just got mad. God, why can't it be easy just for once?! You said you would never leave me or forsake me... where are you? Why am I here? What on earth are you up to because it looks like madness to me.
That is not the first time I have prayed that prayer. As I thought back, I was surprised by how many times in my life I've been exactly where I am right now. Time and time again my life has brought me to my knees pouring out all of my questions and frustration to God. My life has had it's share of hardships. It has not been easy. Nevertheless, God has been faithful to me in every one of those situations.
Looking back it's easy to see.It's my first day of high school when my mom was in St. Louis having brain surgery, and I knew as I walked through the halls scared to death that I was not alone. It's praying as an 11 year old that God would send me, and at 17 having traveled to France, Africa, and Japan with Him on my lips every step of the way. It's a broken down, broken hearted, faded me asking Him, "Who am I?" and that quiet whisper that says continually, "You are mine."
God is faithful.
Through everything, every trial, the endless days, the lonely moments, the victories, the smiles, the laughter, the songs... He has been here.
I find myself still on my knees before the Lord, but my questions, fears, and anger seem so small. I realize that God is faithful. He has been, and He will be. I have no choice, no other option, than to trust that through today He will continue to be everything I need.
How great is our God! I'm so glad He's always got my back!
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