Its really weird to be a teenager. Being in high school is like trying to walk on a house of cards with out knocking it over. Each card is a different person who is wavering on the edge of standing up and falling down.
Usually high school is made up of cliques. It's full of groups of alike people who have the same interests. This clique system is well developed and follows rules that no one says but everyone knows. I break this system. and I don't know why.
People aren't sure what to do with me. I don't fit in with any group, and I'm not upset about that. Honestly, I talk to everyone, and I don't hate anybody. I guess I'm just too reluctant to be like everyone else. And I see the people no one else does.
I've been the kid nobody took the time to get to know, and I know what it feels like to be excluded. I don't like that feeling, but because I have gone through that I see the excluded people. I want to make them realize that someone does care, and I am their friend. I will not talk about them behind their back, or pretend I don't know them when I'm with different people. I will be a friend.
So, I'm the girl that talks to everyone. Who sees everyone, and doesn't betray trust. I'm the girl everyone knows, but nobody cares to get to know. I'm okay with that. I get lonely, and I am patiently waiting for someone to take the time to get to know who I am before they write me off at different.
I am a card in the house of high school. I hope I can be one on the bottom that holds everyone else up and makes things a little bit sturdier for all of us.
I understand... that was me too.
ReplyDeletePeople know there is something that makes you different, and there is no box to stick that in. Our God doesn't fit in a box either :)