This is a big week for me! Lots of things are changing in my life right now. God is making me bolder and more independent... He's got something planned, but I don't know what it is yet.
This week I will find out where I will be going to school next year. It may seem like a little thing, but leaving home in a couple months would be a huge thing to me. I've weighed a lot different things in my decision. I wouldn't get to watch my sisters grow up; I wouldn't be with my sister for her first day of high school. I would leave everything I'm comfortable with and be thrust into new everything all at once. It's unnerving to think about.
Honestly, I'm scared. I am scared, but I'm scared of stupid stuff. After praying about this, I realized I was scared of being away from my church, my family, and the people who know me. In a way, I felt like going to this school would be turning my back on God... and I am not going to do that. God has been teaching me things, and now I see this next year in a new light.
Psalm 139 talks about God being every where. That even if I go to the depths, He is there. Anywhere I go, He is there. I had always thought of that as an intimidating fact, but now I see it is comforting. God will always be with me. When I leave home, I'm not leaving Him because where ever I go He will be there. He is sending me into the world.
I've felt Him forming me into the person He needs me to be, and now He is ready to send me out.
Even if I end up staying here next year, my perspective has changed. I am allowed to see what I hadn't realized before.
I have confidence in God's ability to keep my heart safe.
I don't have to be scared.
There is nothing that can defeat me when God is on my side.
Living life with that kind of confidence can change the world.
I'm praying that someone will join me in being a revolutionary Christian who doesn't settle for routine. I am an ambitious person, and I want to live life fully with no regrets.
Starting now.
Are you with me?
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